Shun idleness. It is a rust that attaches itself to the most brilliant metals.

It’s been quite a while. I know. I don’t have any witty comments or clever responses as to why it has taken me this long to update my blog. I’ve always tried not to put too much pressure on myself to update at specific increments but this seemed ridiculous. It felt like reaching out to an old friend to apologize. At what point is it appropriate? A week, two weeks… every time the phone

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is picked up and the phone number is clearly dialed and waiting to be sent, a sudden wave of clarity washes over resulting in quickly hanging up. The blog is my old friend. for some reason, there was anxiety attached to updating. It felt wrong somehow that things are going okay for me right now. As though I would have nothing to write about. The problem with that – there is always something to write about, no matter how mundane.

I haven’t really updated anything since I received my clean(ish) bill of health. I didn’t want to jinx anything. This has been such a difficult year for me and since things are going in the right direction, my heart is waiting for the other shoe to drop. I have calmed considerably over the past few weeks but the aching feeling is not far in the dark corner of my mind.

I am going to leave it at this and I will not make any promises but I hope to update soon within the next day or so.

Shun idleness.  It is a rust that attaches itself to the most brilliant metals.  ~Voltaire