Forgive me readers. It has been a month since my last submission.
Apart of me has not updated on purpose and another part of me just doesn’t really know what to say. My mind is a latte swirl of ideas and passions and anxieties but they never blend well. Good things are happening to me, which is more than I could ever ask for but I still and always will struggle with who I am inside. It’s one of my main focuses right now. If you’ve read this blog for a while then you know that I am impulsive, indecisive and lack willpower or focus to stick with one thing. I will find something that excites me and I will put all of my energy and self into this project until it teeters out after a month or so. It is my biggest flaw.
I’m attempting to alleviate some of this anxiety from my constant “failures” by approaching my life in a different way. My creativity is a spark that constantly needs to be cared for and ignited. Otherwise, I am restless and find myself on a path of destruction. I started another blog as an outlet to feed my art, all art. Photography, painting, writing, etc. It will serve as a way to find inspiration and peace. I can use it to document my journey into this way of life and the key component is that I am not producing a timeline. I can’t pressure myself to feel peace. I have also found that meditation and practicing mindfulness is helping me with my anxiety. The blog will help me explore yoga and Buddhism as well. Everything I’ve always been interested in and felt drawn to but never fully embraced as an option for me. I’m excited and I feel liberated.
The liberation is definitely a result of a few recent events that occurred. First off, I am very happy to announce that I am now HENRY FREE! That’s right… no more tumor in the back of my head taunting my every headache, every fear and every step. The latest treatment worked better than they ever expected and I couldn’t be happier. The phone call came as a shock which resulted in happy sobs from almost everyone that I know. It was so beautiful to see the level of support and thrill in the eyes of those I love.
I have really good news that is still brewing so I can’t really release the entirety of the information yet until the pot is ready. Stay tuned. haha.
I am trying to see things with more of an open mind and live more fully. If you are interested in following my new blog – You can here. I have named it Nefelibata because it is defined as: “cloud-walker”; one who lives in the clouds of their own imagination or dreams, or one who does not obey the conventions of society, literature, or art. How perfect is that? I finished the title with Zen because that is what I’m looking for. I started a facebook page for it as well.
Wish me luck. 🙂
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